4 lbs DOWN and trip to gym

Well I am 4 lbs lighter than I was 3 weeks ago. LOL I've been adding nightly walks to the mix and decided tonight to officially start my trips to the gym here at my apartment complex. They have a very nice setup. I did 40 mins on the tread mill- stepped off and thought I was going to pass out- and then worked my arms and my legs for another 20 mins. I feel very shaky and light headed, but I also feel accomplished and motivated. I've never wanted a change as much as I do now! I'm ready and welcoming it with open arms!

Now I must go lay down before I pass out. LOL Wish me luck on my new found journey.

Oh and for fun Ben and I did a rune reading for me tonight and out of the entire bag of runes I picked the "transformation" rune. Wow, talk about a sign!

Oh my little Cooper, you're so amazing. Yes I love your brother and sister, but right now you're my last baby and I just think you're the cutest!

Look at the Diet WORK!

So it's been a week and I feel great! I think I even look greater. Is that a word?



HAHA- Actually, I was playing around with my webcam's settings and came up with that. Now only if I could get the sound to work.

The diet is going well. One week down and 20g of carbs a day. I do feel great and it's been alot smoother than I thought it would be. BONUS! I really want to drop some weight. I have clothes in the closet screaming my name. We'll see.

Diet and Stuff

I've decided NOT to update this with all of my meals, because it takes too long and I always forget, so I'll just track progress, not food intake. My back is FINALLY feeling better today, so I'll be able to work out now. So far on the I've only "cheated" once and it was having a cookie. I even made spaghetti last night and DID NOT eat any! I had my fish instead. I was super proud of myself. That was my first test and I passed. I know for a fact that I've lost a couple of pounds. But my stupid scale vacillates the weight, so sometimes I'm 2 lbs. heavier than the day before or 5 lbs. lighter than 10 mins ago. You get the point. It's annoying and I've decided to weigh myself only once a week on Mondays. So, I'm still doing it and it's only been 4 days, but hasn't been bad at all. It's amazing how good water suppresses an appetite!

Day 2 with Coffee grounds

Let me start by saying that Leia will NOT leave the trashcan alone. She has this fascination with it and loves pulling things out of it to walk around with, such as the empty milk carton, etc. She does leave gross things in there like diapers, etc. Anyway, as I was feeding Coop at some point yesterday, Leia walks up to me with what looked like dirt all over her mouth. Upon closer inspection, I realized she ate a handful of coffee grinds out of the trash. OMG! This girl is going to do me in! It was pretty funny though.

Anyway, today starts day 2 of my diet. I know it's all in my head, but I'm already feeling better and thinner. LMAO I drank so much water I thought I'd float away yesterday, but it's sooo good for me. Ben also decided to "hide" any temptations that were around, so that really helps too!

Breakfast:
2 eggs with shredded cheddar cheese
2 small sausage patties
coffee

30 by 30

I'm SICK and tired of being overweight. So, I've decided to do something about it! Starting today, I'm going on a modified Atkins diet- and adding 60 mins of exercise a day. I will be blogging my journey here. My first major goal is to lose 30 lbs. by my 30th birthday- October 29th.

Today marks day one.

So far, I've eaten two eggs with shredded Cheddar cheese, coffee (I read it's better NOT to cut coffee from the equation if you're a big time drinker I've cut back though) and now I'm drinking tons of water. So it begins. I won't be able to exercise tonight the way I was hoping as I pulled my back this weekend and don't hink lifting weights tonight would be a good idea. I do intend on taking a walk this evening though. Also, I will be taking a Vitamin D supplement daily to combat the "first two weeks" foul mood. I'm super excited about this and I'm ready to become a healthier Wendi! Wish me luck. (Oh I did weigh myself, but that's between me and the scale.)

Food for the day:

Breakfast:
two eggs with shredded Cheddar cheese, coffee (I read it's better NOT to cut coffee from the equation if you're a big time drinker I've cut back though).

Lunch:
1 can of tuna with 1 tablespoon light mayo
1 slice of cheese

Snack:
slice of cheese
handful of sunflower seeds

Dinner:
Small steak with mushrooms
green beans
cottage cheese
1 sm. glass of light cranberry juice

My message board is COOL

I have a new love. RockStars. A little background- for almost 4ish years I ran a message board called "Structured Chaos" while it was pretty popular, drama ended up being it's demise. Well, that and the fact that I had Cooper and couldn't really handle 3 kids and a message board. Well, I decided to open a new one called RockStars. It's very mellow and we have a great group of women. My message board is here:

http://rockin.forumotion.net/forum.htm

Just another small part of me.

Aren't I suppose to be spoiled? I'm married!

Okay, so even though I feel like poop, there is something bright and shiny about today. I bribed, convinced, persuaded my husband (we don't need the details on how) into buying me this:



It's a 78 piece makeup palette from Coastal Scents for ONLY $21.95. I'd never heard of the company until I started researching makeup recently. I guess this palette is really good for someone starting out with makeup. I placed the order this morning and they already shipped it! YAY for good customer service.

I'm stoked!

Yuck!

Oh man, I'm not feeling good today. I've been drinking WAY too much coffee daily, which is completely my fault, and I think it's caught up with me today. My tummy is NOT happy with me and I have a super headache. I think I'm going to drink my weight in water today and try and flush my system. At least the kids are being good today!

7 weeks and counting!!

Since I haven't updated this recently, I'm going to kill a few birds with one stone and do a rundown of recent events in Bendi's lives.

First, my confession of all confessions is that I'm officially addicted to NYX makeup. OMG. It's this line that's very well priced (since I can't buy the high end stuff) and it's all so beautiful. I just love it. The downside is that I could potentially see myself spending WAY too much on it! Good thing I got a work from home job in the evenings to pay for my addiction. My last addiction was Twilight and now this. I guess I'll never really grow up.

This is the first order of NYX cosmetics I placed. I've bought more since, but this is my starter order:


Mr. Cooper is 7 weeks old now! After our little choking scare, it was determined he might be battling relux like my other two did. Dade's was silent and Leia's...not so much. The doctor told us to star Coop on rice cereal in his bottles. I did that for a day and that was too long. He went from sweet baby to fussy screaming baby. Since we've taken him off the cereal and just given him the right amount of formula (6 ozs.) he's evened out and we're in a good daily routine. He sleeps good portions of the night. We're not quite sleeping ALL night, but close. He's such a dream baby. He's also started smiling and giggling. Ooooo I love him!




Now my other two....hehehe
Well, they are too big for their britches. I was putting them to sleep today for their nap and I tell Dade "Please lay there quietly and go to sleep. DON'T make a sound." (We've been having some issues with him keeping his sister awake.) As I'm just outside the door he says "But Mom,what if I need to fart?" Yes ladies and gentlemen. This is my 4 year old son taking me by surprise. All I could do was close the door and leave. I laughed so hard I almost cried once I was out of his room. Kids...gotta love them.



Leia is my sweet Leia bug- who also doubles as a "screeching terodactly" for parties. She really knows how to 1.) wrap her brother and Daddy around her finger 2.) make it known that she is unhappy with the way Dade is treating her and 3.) make it known that she is boss. She's so fun and has already let me paint her fingernails. Like we already discussed, I'm a makeup junkie so why shouldn't she be one too?



Here is all 3 monsters together:



I really do love my life these days. Things have mellowed and we're in a routine. Now if only I can find a way to keep Dade from getting uber bored. We're working on it and it's a day at a time thing. I would have never imagined having 3 kids, ALL of which are just like me. WOW!



Okay...more like just like "US."

Scary Moment with my 5 week old

Cooper's been incredibly easy thus far, so I forgive him for scaring me to death this morning at 5am. Cooper was asleep in his swing and I was 2 feet from him on the couch. I had just roused to check on him and then fell back asleep. I hear him scream out once and it wasn't his normal cry at all. Then he does it again. I shoot up from the couch and grab him. He's choking and can't catch his breath. I hear him gasping for breath and start pounding on his back. It takes a good 5 seconds, but he recovers. I have a dr. appointment scheduled for this afternoon. I never want to experience that again! I hope it's nothing serious, and I'm sure it's not, but I don't like that he's been choking from time to time when he's eating and what happened this morning was the kicker.

Poems

Here are two poems- one I wrote when Dade was a baby the other I wrote when Leia was a baby. Guess I need one for Cooper too.

Dade and Ben's poem:

-Once upon a midnight's dream and I'm lost, "Lost in a Forest" like Robert Smith in the early days. To me, the dream was so much a reality. A time of chaos, no structure. A time of sorrow, no peace.

-To wake up today in the arms of love, surrounded by lime green and light blue with steel gray happy eyes was something I thought I'd never deserve.

- Two "he's" in my little land of void have completed my so called existence. With each smile I forget another piece of my regretted past. With each little sound, and each little attempt at the word "Ma Ma" and always hearing the reassuring phrase "I love you", I'm becoming more and more ME.

Leia's poem:

Pretty pink person tied up with a bow.

Playful smile, curious eyes, so full of wonder, so full of life.

Precious innocence with purple and white socks, beautiful baby, baby of mine.

Leia my girl, my wonderful daughter, we will conquer the world together.

Cherish our time, little fingers and toes, tiny lips, tiny nose.

Baby oh baby I can't believe you're mine. Beautiful baby in a pretty pink bow.

Discombobolated....

Transition to 3 was super easier. Easier than I expected. So why do I feel so confused at times. Almost like I'm wondering "okay, what's next?" It's been different for me to make sure the kids are "entertained" during the day (as Dade puts it) because I'm so use to working and not actually being here with my kids. Isn't that sad?! It's a learning experience for all of us. There are things I want to take advantage of too, seeing as I have all this time, but it's hard to juggle all of it. I can not wait until Cooper is 6 months old. Dade will be 5, Leia 2 then and I'm sure we'll have a nice routine going then. And I won't feel so....weird. I can't put my finger on it. I don't want to say I feel empty because I'm full of love. I just feel odd. There's the word.

Cooper's been eating like 5 to 6 ozs. every 3 hours these days. It seems like a lot, but he's not spitting up and screams if I only give him 4 ozs. I don't remember the other two eating this much. Obviously he has a different metabolism. It's crazy! He's starting to also gaze at me more as I'm feeding him and will occasionaly turn his head to look at me. The booger isn't even a month old yet!! He's been so much fun.

Leia is at a fun age too. She's talking more and more. Her newest phrase is "Big Boy." That's what I always say to Cooper and she says it just like I do. Enough to melt my heart! She also still throws some pretty "fun" sceaming fits. But we're working on that.

Dade is Dade. Super smart and super cool. He's developing a bit of and attitude and seems to be bored ALL the time. This too we're working on. We're all going to survive this if it kills us! LOL

Billy Bob Thorton is a turd!

Ben and I watched Man on the Moon last night- the movie about Andy Kaufman. Seems like every time I see that movie I become obsessed with Andy and Google him for hours, watching videos, etc. In his time he was a comedic genius with the pranks he pulled- hell no one knows if he faked his own death or not, he was THAT persuasive. Anyway, the man had a talent and was one of a kind. Today on my YouTube journey into Andy's world, I came across a video of Billy Bob Thorton doing a radio interview with his band on a Canadian station. The dude is clearly either on something, is playing a bad prank or has turned into uber super asshole. It made me stop and think about celebrities these days. These idiots get paid massive amounts of money to promote themselves- their art and turn around just to act like total idiots. Don't they realize they would be NOTHING without their fans, the radio, the television, whatever else it is that builds them?! And then you had Andy who did not want to get rich, was doing it for ART and for nothing else, not even himself. He was one of a kind and it's sad we're stuck with the Billy Bob's and Joaquin Phoenix's' of today.

Andy would be so disappointed- unless of course Billy Bob is just channeling his inner Kaufman. Fat chance.

Current cute pictures of my kids



Dade- 4.5ish
Leia- 17 months
Cooper- 2 weeks old

What to do?

My To Do List:

• Leave work on maternity leave: done
• Have Cooper: done
• Establish some sort of a routine with the kids: done
• Get Leia to stop her screaming fits: in progress
• Make Dade understand this is only temporary and that no we can't leave the house ALL the time because Mommy can't lug 2 babies and a stroller around everywhere by herself just yet: in progress
• Not feel guilty that I can't do the above: won't happen
• Figure out a way to keep them entertained here at home: in progress
• Keep myself from going crazy: WHAT HUH?
  
• Try and keep the yelling to a minimum: isn't that what Mommy's are for?!
• Take a shower daily: HAHAHAHAHA
• Get up off my ass and get some work done: in progress

What did I get myself into!?

Cooper baby

I just found this photo and needed to publish it. Cooper was only a few days old here (not that he's much older now) and was obviously unhappy. I wanted to post this because it is pretty rare that my sweet boy is unhappy. He's such a good natured guy. We're super lucky!

Here piggy piggy

I think this whole swine flu thing is making me crazy. I intentionally don't read or watch coverage on this so I can stay blissfully out of the loop. I know very little but even then, I see it everywhere. I am so sick of the US media blowing things like this out of porportion. The bird flu was the next big thing and it came and went. I remember the Haunta virus here in NM years ago, that came and went. That was scary because it was carried by mosquitos. Haven't heard about that in years. Now we have a new virus (a flu with mild symptoms) and the world is going ape shit. I don't understand the need to whip people into a frenzy especially when there isn't much we know about it. I googled a list of symptoms and could not find one article relating to that. If it were truly such a terrible threat, you think they would have a website dedicated to symptoms and treatments. If there is one, it isn't easy to find. I can understand this is a threat and that it is something to think about, but having people on edge and in a contant state of worry is just not right. Most US cases have been mild and treated with over the counter drugs. How many people die of the regular flu each year. How is this so different? Because there isn't a vaccine as of yet? I'm sure once there is one it will have come and gone. In a few months we'll look back on this and wonder what ever happened to the swine flu? ! Just another reason why college kids shouldn't go to Mexico on Spring Break. Let that be a lesson! HAHA

How to juggle 3 kids and still play World of Warcraft!

You don't! HA.

Anyone who knows me, knows I like to "escape reality" by playing WoW. Ben and I play when the kids are sleeping. I've had some major WoW withdraw these days. The upside is- I've gotten more done around the house, Ben and I have spent other time together and have grown closer AND I don't spend as much in game gold. LMAO

So I'm rambling, but today is mellow so far and I don't really have anything to whine, complain, or brag about.

10 days down

I started this blog in order to keep friends and family up to date on my life as a Mom of 3 kids. And for prosperity sake as well. I'm sure I'd love to read back on this in a few months/years to see just how I coped with certain situations. And to laugh at myself and the stress I'm sure will be self inflicted.

10 days ago today I had my third child Samuel Cooper Girven. We call him Cooper. The name fits him well. We also like to call him "Coop." He is the mellow third baby. Cries only when he's getting changed and when he's hungry. He sleeps well and doesn't need much other than attention and food. This is good because I also have a 4 year old smarty pants going on 13 year old son and a 17 month old Pterodactyl. Why Pterodactyl? Because her screech can pierce human ears and terrify anyone.

These 10 days have been interesting to say the least. Ben had to go back to work the day after we brought Cooper home, so I was pretty much thrown into the whole 3 kid thing immediately. I've had some rough days and I'm sure the kids have too. Dade is use to being around kids all day and is bored out of this mind. He's also learning the hard way that we don't always get what we want when we want. Leia is learning how to play the system and is also learning she's no longer the baby. It's been bitter sweet as we had a nice routine going on and now there is chaos. I'm enjoying having my 3 healthy beautiful kiddo's but this is only day 10 and it's still a little new to me and I'm still healing phsically and emotionally. Let's see how the next month goes.